It Hurts to Be This Sexy
	2004-06-22 | 4:25 p.m. If It Were on HBO, it would be called something like "Queerly Yours"
	The Shmohawk is apparently coming for a visit. She said there are flight deals right now, and that if she can't get one she's renting a car. Whoa there tiger, I wanna say. But I keep not saying it. I need to re-read The Ethical Slut, because I'm pretty sure that my complete emotional irresponsibility here is quite unethical. In other words, if she visits, we're gonna have sex. I'm gonna enjoy it. I'm not gonna want to have a big/special/hearts and flowers relationship of the monogamous variety with her. If I tell her this, which I must, the sex will probably still happen. But it might not. And I might have to deal with the fact that I didn't say it over the phone, which is where I've been wanting to say it. Where I've actually said things that could be it, but aren't completely. Crazy town. I feel like my life is a gay show on a cable network. Yeah. Because I also spent the weekend Bostoning with Drag Crush, who gives me the weirdest signals that may not be signals. According to my Boston Programmite, Drag Crush was looking at me whenever I wasn't nearby and touching me whenever I was. I didn't notice this, but it wouldn't necessarily surprise me. But then he said that he only likes boys, which is what I thought until a few months ago when he told me he liked femmes as well. I need to let go, but now I'm invested. I kind of expect a two dates at the same time thing to happen next, maybe. Or maybe not. There's also the fact of a very cute San Francisco boy that I met a few nights ago who has been friendster messaging with me. It's all very cute and flirty, and makes me wonder why I can't have the cute and flirty thing happening with someone who lives, I don't know, in state, maybe? Dear Reader, if you happen to be God(dess)/Higher Power/really good at manifesting, would you please help me figure out what's happening with love and jobs and a place to live? Also make at least one person I'm friends with be around some, because everyone's going away and it's making me a sad, sad angel. **Flitter Pray** The weather that ROARED - 2005-03-01 Enabler's Rag - 2005-02-15 Where in the world? - 2005-01-14 Where have all the rude boys gone? - 2005-01-04 quickly - 2004-11-21 <-- - -->	Last Next Newest Older Rings Pictures Links Profile Guestbook Email me Notes Diaryland Hate is Great

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