It Hurts to Be This Sexy
	2004-07-07 | 1:41 a.m. No sexity, no doubt
	I've decided that the thing I need most right now is not a job, but some good, old-fashioned, how's-it-going-partner-hell-yeah sex. Ok, so maybe not old-fashioned. But you catch my drift. I have become a driven woman. Bring me my sex! Where is the moshpit? You know? It's crazy. I secretly think I have options. The Shmohawk becomes more of an option daily. It unsettles me, Reader, and yet it works. For some reason that I cannot explain, I am still excited by this person who aided in my crappy feelings for several months. I am rationalizing by saying that a) she has admitted to being a jerkface, and apologizes for it and b) I'm in a very different place with her, and probably won't get hurt again. I've said it before, I know. But I'd really like to believe there's still some working bits in there. When I ask myself what Jesus would do, it always comes out the same: sex sex sex. Dirty. But I can't help myself. I also think I could potentially talk about some sex with the Leather Boy. But there's lots of talking there. And as ridiculous as I know it is, I really hate to just ask. There have to be better ways to bring things up, but I sure as heck don't know them. I'm also looking forward to a wild and crazy Festival week, with lots of sex visits and make-out parties and other such nonsense. Oh I hope I hope, you know? I am also continuing to kick myself about the Trannyfag Party Boy. Damn it. He totally wanted to make out with me, he totally thought I was cute, and it would have been a super fun night. And I sort of screwed it up. I have decided that I will now take initiative with this sort of thing. Seize the makeout, as it were. But right now, I'm sitting at Library Chick's house, sweating and thinking it would be nice to have some excellent bed company right now. Where are fuckbuddies when you need them? Who has them? How did they get them? When can I pick mine up? All sorts of questions and no answers. Oh my. And. Shmohawk wants to fly me to Toronto for a visit, because I have more traveling date flexibility. This unnerves me. I want opinions and advice, should any of you have it. Let me know, por favor. **Questions and Pantsers** The weather that ROARED - 2005-03-01 Enabler's Rag - 2005-02-15 Where in the world? - 2005-01-14 Where have all the rude boys gone? - 2005-01-04 quickly - 2004-11-21 <-- - -->	Last Next Newest Older Rings Pictures Links Profile Guestbook Email me Notes Diaryland Hate is Great

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