It Hurts to Be This Sexy
	2004-09-09 | 2:36 p.m. It's almost gone, but still faintly there
	I'm in love with Brooklyn. We were totally made for each other or something. Or maybe it's just that I'm friends with my roommates (they're a cute and queer and kinky couple) and living close (walking distance) to several of my good dragster friends and spending quality time with puppies (there are three here). Some combination of those things. The only gross part is not having any money (I think I have a dollar in change, if I empty my piggy bank). Other than that, I wouldn't trade my life for anyone else's right now. I finally resolved things with Shmohawk last night after a couple of weeks of not talking with one another. It was mostly financial and time-related not talking, but that doesn't really matter when there's so much unresolved stuff happening between people. The long and short of it is that I accidentally started loving her (well, trusting her in combination with my intense attraction to her), but she's trying to be with someone else right now. It comes down to the fact that being with her has not ever been the right thing. It still isn't. But somehow we're good with one another, and I think that more than anything she's taught me how to communicate (maybe by showing me how NOT to communicate). I'm hoping that our talk last night will help me get past most of the feelings I keep having for her. Drag Crush put it best when she described Shmohawk as my own kind of "human heroin"--the people who make you feel high by just being there. I'd like to believe it's all sex, but it's more than that now. Blah blah blah. I want to have a love affair with Brooklyn. **No Sleep Til** The weather that ROARED - 2005-03-01 Enabler's Rag - 2005-02-15 Where in the world? - 2005-01-14 Where have all the rude boys gone? - 2005-01-04 quickly - 2004-11-21 <-- - -->	Last Next Newest Older Rings Pictures Links Profile Guestbook Email me Notes Diaryland Hate is Great

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