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It Hurts to Be This Sexy

2004-11-09 | 1:03 a.m.
Upswing

It took one day of not-too-difficult processing for me to be pretty much ok with The Missed Connection. We emailed back and forth; I asked her a couple of questions and she answered them. She feels guilty, but I told her she shouldn't.
She told me about the other person she's seeing, and it turns out that a) I know her, b) I like her, and c) she's someone my Punk Rock Roommate used to have a low-grade crush on. When I realized all this, I had a moment of Vonnegutian connection (which will only make sense if you've read Cat's Cradle): this other person is in my karass. We're moving in the same machine. Busy busy busy.
I'm proud of myself for communicating well, and proud of The Missed Connection for doing the same. And we agreed that if things don't work out between her and Karass, a reunion tour will be in order for the two of us.
This is good and bad. Good because YAY, I like The Missed Connection, and would love for things to work out with us. Bad because the part of me that most wants things to work out between us hopes that things go badly so that I can have what I want. It's a valid emotion, but a yucky one that I don't completely connect with. I see it as my id voice, in a way, and have been listening and correcting all night.
But the long and short of it is that I'm not so sad. Walking in the cold to my friend's house a block away, I was struck by the fact that I really did have an excellent month with The Missed Connection, which is much more good relationship time than I've ever had outside of my delightful friendships. A month of wonderful is pretty great. I think of it more as a sign of things to come than as the only goodness I'll ever get.
And thank you, Reader, for support and love and goodness. It is always appreciated.
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It Hurts to Be This Sexy
	2004-11-09 \| 1:03 a.m. Upswing
	It took one day of not-too-difficult processing for me to be pretty much ok with The Missed Connection. We emailed back and forth; I asked her a couple of questions and she answered them. She feels guilty, but I told her she shouldn't. She told me about the other person she's seeing, and it turns out that a) I know her, b) I like her, and c) she's someone my Punk Rock Roommate used to have a low-grade crush on. When I realized all this, I had a moment of Vonnegutian connection (which will only make sense if you've read Cat's Cradle): this other person is in my karass. We're moving in the same machine. Busy busy busy. I'm proud of myself for communicating well, and proud of The Missed Connection for doing the same. And we agreed that if things don't work out between her and Karass, a reunion tour will be in order for the two of us. This is good and bad. Good because YAY, I like The Missed Connection, and would love for things to work out with us. Bad because the part of me that most wants things to work out between us hopes that things go badly so that I can have what I want. It's a valid emotion, but a yucky one that I don't completely connect with. I see it as my id voice, in a way, and have been listening and correcting all night. But the long and short of it is that I'm not so sad. Walking in the cold to my friend's house a block away, I was struck by the fact that I really did have an excellent month with The Missed Connection, which is much more good relationship time than I've ever had outside of my delightful friendships. A month of wonderful is pretty great. I think of it more as a sign of things to come than as the only goodness I'll ever get. And thank you, Reader, for support and love and goodness. It is always appreciated. Bound and Rebound The weather that ROARED - 2005-03-01 Enabler's Rag - 2005-02-15 Where in the world? - 2005-01-14 Where have all the rude boys gone? - 2005-01-04 quickly - 2004-11-21 <-- - -->	Last Next Newest Older Rings Pictures Links Profile Guestbook Email me Notes Diaryland Hate is Great